Yeahhh.. thats what you see.. i decided to write in English. First: cause i'm bored, its saturday night, i got nothing to do, nowhere to go and dont feel like going to bed. Second: cause i need to practise a little bit. And third: cause i wanted.
Actually, a third reason could be the fact that i feel more comfortable to express myself in English, dont ask me why. Its been 17 days that we started a new year... I hope, for God sake, that this will be better than that past one, which i wanna forget... Anyways, in 17 days so many things have already happened, bad things, some tragedies, i could write about what people talk the most: Haiti, Angra, the program of human rights, but i'll discuss about my most recent digressions: what gets in and out of us. I'll explain: Money is good right? Its SO hard to get money in our account, but its SO easy to make it go out. Calories are exactly the opposite: They are terrible, and its SO easy to gain a big chunk of fat, but SO hard to loose miserables 200 calories! Incredible! And Unfair man... At least the nature could have been a little cooler whit me, allowing me to have the pleasure to eat what i love and still be skinny.
This is one of the questions that will never stop screaming inside my head: Why good things are SO hard to get and so easy to loose? And bad things come so easily but we need to sweat to get rid of? Why things cant end up good for everybody? What makes a person to be in love with another who is 170 km away for more than 6 months? Or work so hard for so long to reach a goal, and fail? Why do i regret so many things and can't get back in time? Why is he so beautiful?
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If at least tears could solve something...
I know i'm being so fucking selfish. I keep thinking about myself while Porto Principe in under wreckage, people dying, children crying, starving, desperate, they really have reason to cry, i should be ashamed of complaining about my good life, but i still do.
Of course, whoever is reading this (i think nobody) dont need to even try to answer this questions. I hope next year i can write another text with all the answers, propably there will be even more doubts, maybe thats what life is for: to ask and answer, to know myself better each day and find solutions, or not. I'm kinda mad at God lately, but i still trust Him, He'll help me i guess. To everybody a good 2010!
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Hi!
At first, I read your text and my name is not "nobody" rs.. At second, you told to the ones who read it not even to try to figure out the answers to that questions you just wrote about, and I wont. However, I would like to comment what you just told about being "selfish". In my opinion, what I believe that worth probably nothing to you XD, you were not being selfish on that. You talked about personal problems, gave it your opinion about some of the most paradoxes in the whole life; good things and bad things (yeah, sometimes it really piss me off too), but still showed you're aware there are a lot of other problems, and big ones, like the nightmare happened on Angra and Haiti. You know all about it, but still, you know you have your own problems. I don´t believe this is like "being selfish", I just believe, after reading the text and from now on, that you are NOT a hypocritical person. XD And 2010 will be better, believe it. I know its hard to read this but: Try to focus on the little good things; enjoy the little things. The problem is that people usually choose to maximize the losses and minimize the gains. Stand up and see the world around you with "other eyes" makes ALL THE DIFFERENCE.
Great 2010 to you!
I left you a testimony with this message too. Bye!
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